Evolving

The image I chose for this post tells you where I’m focused right now. I’m dreaming of sitting outside on the porch, my houseplants surrounding me (they’re on summer vacation), and taking in the fresh air and sunshine. This experience includes not having to be bundled up in snow gear!

It is the first week of February 2023. Winter in Michigan usually sees the harshest weather in January and February. Since I live to start gardening in the spring, this means I have February and March yet to go. So, I find things to keep me going. If I should see some sun peak through now and then, that’s truly a bonus!

What am I doing to keep busy? I enjoy the companionship and care of my houseplants and my cats. Of course, I’ve been working on my 2023 business plan and painting.

I’ve also been reflecting. I try to learn from the past without getting stuck there.

There’s a lot to be learned by examining our past. All of our choices and paths we choose have consequences. I am learning to pay attention to how I got where I’m at today. I also know that I have to focus on where I want to be in the future.

Since I’m a very visual person. I take time to think back on the things that brought me joy and the things that brought me pain. I’m learning life’s lessons and hopefully, I’m all the wiser for it.

I’m not who I was two years ago. Dealing with the emotionally painful journey of having my husband’s terminal illness end, saying goodbye to his family and my temporary home in a zero-barrier apartment, and moving… yet again, to my own home.

You lose your identity. You don’t know who you are or where you’re going. About all you have the energy for is to survive each day. I focus on 2 or 3 tasks that I think I have to complete on any given day. If all of the tasks do not get completed on their scheduled day, I take it easy on myself and try again tomorrow.

Who am I? I’m not sure. I’m evolving.

Be well, be blessed.